fake love

i have had some really beautiful/sexy, really talented leading men play opposite me in my lifetime. and for whatever reason (probably because i was usually dating someone else) i never had the what-seems-to-be common problem of falling for your fellow actor. however... the project i just finished, i was opposite my leading man very little of the time, and while we connected quite well on camera, we didn't always in the green room. until the last 2 days of shooting, when we spent hours waltzing together, and found our rhythm there and elsewise. and i do believe, that right about then, he stole a little bit of my bruised-up used-up heart. and though i'm not sure why, i have my theory.... i do find dancing, that sort of dancing, very intimate. and i don't think that's just my opinion.
sigh.

if he wasn't so much younger that i would ruin him, i would consider getting in the middle of that. unfortunately, i am an old hag to his young buck. and that just wouldn't be fair, mrs. robinson.
sigh.

maybe i just need to get laid.
sigh.
and then i have to chuckle.
it's good being able to step back when you know you should. aka, experience-gained self-control.