oh, george...

from this article:

HOLLYWOOD superhunk George Clooney has admitted he doesn’t think he’ll ever find love and have a family.

The 44-year-old actor says relationships will always come second to his work and his friends.

He told OK! magazine: "I’ve made it difficult to have a relationship because, because my first love is my work and my second love is my friends.

"That means everything else in my life is going to suffer to some extent..."

okay, if you replace the second priority of friends with family, you've got me. george, i completely understand your predicament. and i think we'd get along juuuuuuust fiiiiiiine. why don't you give me a call?

(and don't ask why i was reading this bunk to begin with. i was groggy and pre-coffee when it happened.)

conflamma

ever notice that conflict generates drama, and vice versa?

hence the conflamma. (which i know should rightly be spelled "conflama" but looks better with 2 m's... but i digress...)

anyway, i've had a heightening build-up of conflamma over the last couple days, and i'm sort of *over* it. i worked out some serious aggression at the gym yesterday then took a long, meditative steam, and let me tell ya, i think i sweated out all the negative energy. and am i ever glad. this sort of drain is unwanted in my life.

my point being, really, that i was talking with my mum over the holidays about the fact that over the past year i generally find myself happy, and that the bit of bad days that come my way are just accepted, lived thru, and learned from. so this past 72 hours or so has been a shock to the system~haven't had such negativity in my life in such extreme measures in a long time. i almost forgot i could choose to be released from it!

so i am happy to say i've come back thru the other side of the rainbow, the deal sealed by a nice long conversation last night with someone of extremely positive energy. thank you.

awwwwwww

look how cute! that's me and my youngest niece, audrey, over the holidays. ain't she adorable? thanks to lar for the great pic!

2006 is gonna rock

okay, so i've already been called for 6 auditions and it's only the freakin' 4th day of the year! plus, i just found out i booked one of those gigs! more info about that on my professional blog in the near future...
for now, i just wanted to mention the coolness of knowing this is the year i get my life. been talking to close friends and family about just this thing, this intuition. and i just read (i know, i know....) my horoscope for the year. check it out. sounds brilliant, eh?
remember, you knew me when....

Cancer
Separations and disconnections will change the way you look at things. Quickly, you are becoming the talk of the town, as a year like no other will unfold and dazzle us all along the way. An unfairly handsome heart will seek you out, particularly in the spring. Your intuitive, alert sensibilities will be recognized and poised for greatness. However, a word of warning: "Not all is fair in love and war." Your unique destiny will finally show itself to you: Richness; Sophistication; and a private Passion. By the end of the year, you will be at a crossroads.